our room

mama and effa kena caught

the swamp balcony

effa's room

effa's room

papa, err lol

effa room turned pink, ewww!

over the weekend,
i can only describe one word about dean -WOW.
i was really shocked, so does mama and papa. by the amount of strength he had. he painted our room, balcony and effa’s, clean our entire house including store room, catch lizard with bare hand and even had soccer tournament on Sunday morning.

He didn’t say much during the process, he just kept quiet but he moved like omg. He painted without rest where papa already gave up.

All he did was smile. He kept smiling smiling with his bright eyes.

He did it with his heart. and We all see that.

What I find most unforgettable about it was we bonded.
Dean learnt so much about my family as we cleaned the rooms. He saw us, our past, our precious things we hid behind close door. He saw mama and papa life. He saw my spice girls poster I hid, my primary school bag, papa’s guitar and trumpet and cowboy boots, our lizards, mama collection of curtain, etc.

And all he did was again smile, and quietly vacuum away the dust.

I looked at him, and I cried by myself, a lot. I don’t know how I ever repay this man kindness. He was like an angel in our house.

We laughed the entire weekend, we bonded so much.

As Dean slept my house the last day, as I made breakfast for him and as he was about to left, I held his hand tight, and I cried “please don’t go…” and he was like “2 months ok..” kiss me and left.

I really miss his presence in my house.
He really belong in my house my heaven,

And, surprisingly, most shockingly ever was papa.
The day after Dean left, papa said as he almost cried. His words I will never ever ever forget.
“izan, papa dunno why, but I think I miss dean. I miss my son. You know I don’t say things like this often but, I really miss dean. i miss his presence in our house..”

You know friends, I can say a million times how much that weekend mean a lot for my family as you guys like wonder like whats so much of the big a deal. But that two day, I can just say

Dean was really like an angel. His heart shine so bright that he left his kindness unforgotten by me and my family. I truly appreciate everything he had done to us.

Oh and the most sweetest thing dean said to me when he sleepover was when he whispered eagerly before he go for his bath,
“awak! What color is your toothbrush? I borrow ok I want to brush my teeth.”

You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you

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On Monday I went over to ECP and had a blast with Dean’s family. Diana, majid, kakak, shikin and saha.
I was tasked to model for Diana shop and I pray it will turned out great for her cos I know I look like so fat and ugly and horrible monster looking.

It was so fun to hang out with them as majid and dean drive us around in the bumpiest lorry ride ever.
I wish we will have more of this :)




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And Tuesday was nenek’s 69 birthday bash. Me and dean sneakily ring the house bell and lit candles. She was shocked.

Again, we bonded as nenek and atuk took out the oldest most vintage photo album where errr, its filled with so many of my FACE.haha.atuk whispered and said to me and dean “dalam kampong atuk dulu, bukan nak puji tapi datuk ckp yang jujur, nenek kau yang paling sexy” OMG!


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